18 Apr 09
I was suppose to go to class tutorial #4, tp terpaksa dikorbankan sebab nak siapkan homework mia pasal. Sok pagi2..dh nak pegi LCCT, mmg tak sempat klo tak siapkan jugak. Arini papa, mama ngn syn, drive from Espee, papa & mama teman syn drive. Nak hantar dia blk Uni10. Dh start sem baru. Since me & kakak going to KK, she's have to come over earlier one day to packs all her belonging yg dia park kat umh kakak.Punya la pulunaih wat homework seharian, at last siap kul 11suku mlm.. waahahahah.. padam muka aku, sapa soh tak siap kan awal2??!! hah! hamik kao! dh siap2 submit on9 sume, so abg hantar aku blk .. tak packing apa lagi ney.. huhuhu ketaq2 kaki aku nak pack. Bukan pa, takut lupa bawak brg yg nak bawak p KK. Bukan dekat bley patah2 balik ni. Tau je la aku nie kan mak ngot sikit, suka lupa.. mmg terkenal dh perangai aku ni. Smp je umh, trus express rakyat aku pack brg, masuk suma, yg paling penting snorkeling gears yg baru aku beli.. yg tu harus!! okay, semangat nak snorkeling!
19 Apr 09
Kul 4pagi kakak kejut soh siap2.. mandi n get ready. Uthai anne will come and pick us up, then pick up k/Dillah plak baru we off to LCCT. Siap2 mandi, tgh make up2 lite2, ala2 berbedak jer, sebab nak travel selalu aku ganaz je, malas nak blusher2. So dh siap salam2, and kissing2 my beloved mommy (wajib!! miss u ma), off we go. Selamat smp umh k/Dillah, then Annen antar me & kakak to LCCT. So we wait there, sementara they go and leave keta annen kat umh abg Ferh*t. By the time, kami breafast kat kedai Kopi Kacang dulu.. mmm sedap salad dia.. yg lain2.. OK la..
Dari matahari belom terbit smp la matahari terbit tinggi, baru kiteorg check in and boarding sementara tunggu Flight. Hmm kalini i gives 2thumbs up to AirAsia, flight kali ni tak delay. Masuk on time. So trus je naik flight, and it takes about 2and 1/2hours to reach KK. heheheh.. dlm flight me & annen, gila seronot.. hehehe yer lah lama dh tak naik flight. Smp2 jer KK, lagi la ya Allah, excited nyer tok sah ckp. We reach airport, then kluar je kat pintu airport, survey2, then ask tourist infor counter (cheewahh!! perasan tourist masa nie.. ehhehe yer la kan 1st time smp Sabah!)
pastu we decided nak sewa keta, mcm advise org kat counter tu. Lagi berbaloi & jimat. YESS, itu yg di cari.. selagi boley JIMAT.. memang budget!! So sepakat sume nak naik MyVii, so terus je, pegi mkn lunch. Kat kedai mkn tengah2 town KK. Kedai tu nama apa ek?? Dh lupa.. tp mkn nasik padang. hmm sedap jugak.. sebab suma lapa sgt2. Masing2 dengan perut yg kenyang, gerak ke Kundasang. 1st nite we plan stay 1nite kat kaki Gunung Kinabalu, to enjoy view of the highest peak in Mesia nieh!! Gigih masing2. Dugaan nya Tuhan je yg tau!, tayar keta masuk paku. Kena tukar plak pakai tayar spare, jenuh la cari kedai tayar along the way.. Travel hari Ahad, mana ada kedai bukak!! Aduh.. dugaan sunggoh! Sepanjang jln berdoa, then, luckily we found 1small shop yg buka, mmg repair tayar. Zass, laju je tukar, tampal lubang then terus gerak ke Kundasang. Planned nyer nak gi lawat hot spring, tp dh keta wat hal, we arrive slightly off the target time, tak sempat la nak gi lawat tempat2 yg best tu..change of plan, we try jln2 kat Kinabalu Park. Sejuk sgt2 bila dh smp kundasang tu.. hehehe along the way, jakun gak kiteorg nie.. hehehehe bukak tingkap!! sebab angin sejuk.. mcm genting.. ehheheh, but tp lagi sejukkkk!! hehehe i tot sejuk lebih kurang je mcm Genting! Mlm tu, they all plan celebrate B'thday abg Ferh*t. So in conjuction with my up & coming B'day. hehehe sekali la.. kakak letak my name too on the cake.. hehehe anyway, I'm very happy! coz dpt celebrate 2kali.. ehhehe sekali dekat kaki Gunung sekali lagi dinner kat Tony Roma's.. memang best!
20 Apr 09
Dh enjoy simple but very fullfiling breakfast, bgn pagi kul 7.00 dh siap2 nak tgk sun rise, nak tgk peak. pastu tangkap2 gambar along the way. View dia.. ya Allah, cantik sgt. Igtkan org tangkap gambar, edit2 bg cantik pastu masuk poskad, tp rupanya betul2 mmg ada view cantik camtu.. setelah 27taun hidup, 1st time tgk gunung Kinabalu ngn mata kepala sendiri.. selama ni baca dlm buku je kan? Nah.. hamik kau!! tgk sendri..mmg menakjubkan!! Syukru alhamdulilah.. sebab di beri nikmat & peluang tgk kebesaran Allah. Turun dr kaki bukit, trus ke KK town, nak pegi breakfast. Lapa lagi.. baru kul 10.30 dekat2 kul11 pagi. Check in kat Century hotel, tukar2 outfit, get ready nak pegi snorkeling!! heheheh yg aku idam2 kan selamanie...1st time jugakkk!!
sgt2 cantik!!! nnt aku load gambar ek/??
Monday, April 27, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
A Trip To Remember
Usually,public holiday ker, Valentine's ker, kalo plan somthing up, (dating especially) ader jer yg akan spoil. Akan ada sebab plan tu tak jd. *sigh. sedey tau! tapi itula nak wat cena. Dh lali dh pon. Sebab selalu sgt jd. So this year let me start with new year's day. Plan nak pegi tgk bunga api. I heard that KLCC this year is not going to celebrate new year as grand as previous year. 2009 the world is facing and recession. So part of it nak mula berjimat from the starting of the year. Ingat nak pegi Putrajaya nak tgk bunga api, last minute kat office, heard that my friend said, there's no fireworks this year at Putrajaya. Last2 we end up dok umh jer. Celebrate minum sparkling juice ngn tgk tv. Pastu jenguk kat tingkap tgk bunga api dr celah2 tall building around KL. Sedeynyer.. napa la tak terpikir nk pegi Sunway ker, One Utama (2008 dh celebrate kat OU), last2 menyesal le. Gigit jari tak dpt tgk bunga api dr dekat. Ala2 merajuk, tapi kelakar jugak.Adik kata kami (Me, kakak and Abg),nie tak REMAJA langsung.Kehkehkes..yerla nak wat cena kan?
Merajuk.*hmm how to say it ek? tak merajuk sgt, sedey sebab nak celebrate, tp kekeringan idea, end up lepak ja, tak tau nak watpa. tu yg paling tak best. On 3rd Jan 09, sebagai ganti (ala2 pujuk la tu konon!) he promise to bring me to Cameron. Hehehe. Happy sgt bila dpt pegi tempat peranginan centu. Bayangkan la sekali seumor hidup tak penah p Cameron. As a nw year gift for me, we headed up the heal and start very early, 8.30am on the road. Pagi2 ari Sabtu bangun awal nie. Huiyoh.semangat waja nak pi jln. heheheh, planning nak gerak 7.30am tp terbabas gak. Yg pasti, hari tu aku dpt pi Cameron Highland. Pagi tu mmg cuaca cantik, tp smp tghari cuaca mula hujan. Bila smp kat sana, whole day hujan renyai. jln licin and suhu sejuk sgtt.
Petang tu on the way balik singgah makan mee curry kat Ulu Bernam R&R. Memang marvellous, sedap. I'm not a fan of curry me myself, but to me this is the only mee curry that i would eat if anyone would offer.
Zul Mee Kari
I reach home dekat 11.30pm and already tired but I enjoyed myself in cold and rainy day up on a Famous Hill with starwberries.hehehe
There's memories to remember, a day trip yg penat tp memang best.
Friday, November 21, 2008
Liku-Liku Kehidupan
Tuhan bagi satu kesedihan
Tapi Dia ganti ngn seribu kegembiraan
Itulah.. kadang-kadang kegembiraan depan mata kita tak nampak.
Kat mana letaknya kesyukuran nikmat yg Allah beri?
Huhuuh.. kita..aku selalu alpha..
Ya Allah.. ampuni dosa hamba mu..
aku mohon pada mu. Permudahkan la perjalan hidup ku ini
lindungi la aku dlm lingkungan rahmat mu.
Murah kan la rezeki ku ya Allah.
Aku mohon.. ringankan la beban yg kutanggung ini
Berilah petunjuk agar aku berada di jln yg benar.
Berilah dugaan yg mampu ku tanggung dan jgnlah kau uji diriku dengan dugaan yg berat.
Moga di perkenankan doa2 hamba mu yg kerdil ini ya Allah.
aku sedar siapa diri ku di sisimu Ya rabb
Hanya ini yg mampu aku pohon.
Tiada siapa selain mu yg maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang.
Amin..
Allahu akhbar! Allahuakhbar!
Tapi Dia ganti ngn seribu kegembiraan
Itulah.. kadang-kadang kegembiraan depan mata kita tak nampak.
Kat mana letaknya kesyukuran nikmat yg Allah beri?
Huhuuh.. kita..aku selalu alpha..
Ya Allah.. ampuni dosa hamba mu..
aku mohon pada mu. Permudahkan la perjalan hidup ku ini
lindungi la aku dlm lingkungan rahmat mu.
Murah kan la rezeki ku ya Allah.
Aku mohon.. ringankan la beban yg kutanggung ini
Berilah petunjuk agar aku berada di jln yg benar.
Berilah dugaan yg mampu ku tanggung dan jgnlah kau uji diriku dengan dugaan yg berat.
Moga di perkenankan doa2 hamba mu yg kerdil ini ya Allah.
aku sedar siapa diri ku di sisimu Ya rabb
Hanya ini yg mampu aku pohon.
Tiada siapa selain mu yg maha pengampun lagi maha penyayang.
Amin..
Allahu akhbar! Allahuakhbar!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Mak tok
Arini 17 June 2008
My day starts as usual. Tapi lately memang ari rasa berdebar2 ja..pastu mata plak selalu rasa kelip2 kat kelopak mata..kadang2 kanan, kadang sebelah kiri. Itula org kata nak menangis..
Dekat Kul 7 lebih ptg tu aku balik cam biasala..
abg chik nak blk sekali.. jln la sama2.. sib bek tak ujan.. jln dr office smp lrt.. org sesak..kena beratur tunggu, tapi tak lama 2nd train tu aku dpt masuk..
just about few second b4 pintu lrt tutup, my phone ring.
Papa! ala..time2 sesak camni aku payah nak angkat phone. Selalunya aku tak jawab, tapi aritu aku jawab jugak..hello?
aku dengaq sora syrn menangis dlm phone. aku rasa cam jantung aku benti time tu. Trus aku trigt kat tok. Ntah la.. lately mmg asyik trigt kat tok.. papa plak dok tanya bila nak balik. Nie lagi satu sebab wat aku tak sedap ati..
K/alyne..maktok..
huh?!.
*crying..sob..then she take a big gulp.. i can hear clearly she cry very bad
Maktok dh tak dak ...
masa tu.. org berhimpit dlm lrt tak tau la nak ckp...lembut lutut tuhan ja yg tau.. tapi aku tahan gak....i be strong.. keep telling to myself please dont fall org ramai sgt dlm lrt ni... just about smp station pasar seni.. ada org get down, abg chik manage to give someway and i get to seat. Dia soh aku calm down.. masa tu air mata berjuraian cam hujan, aku dah tak kira malu.Aku nangis ja dh tak peduli org pandang. Aku try call kakak, dia tak angkat. Batri phone dh tinggal 1 bar.. call byk kali dah kong dh phone lama aku mmg dah tunggu time ja. Tangan kaki aku dah tak rasa pijak bumi. My hand was shaking and susah nak tekan button hijau.Sib bek ada Abg chik tolong call kakak and when he manage to get the line.. all aku say, kak.. maktok.. then my eyes starts drolling again.. and she she response sama ja cam aku. When i say maktok dah tak dak.. she just shocked and keep quite. Aku ulang lagi sekali and starts crying and i can see ppl looking and staring.
So smp ja station Tmn Jaya, stop yg selalu kakak pick me up, aku turun c2, abg chik kata dia nak teman. I couldnt bother. Selangkah ja keluar dr lrt tu.. aku meraug sesungguh hati.. dr td tahan dlm lrt malu nak nangis. So out of train, so do my heart cry out loud. Memang ramai org kat situ, but all i could remember was, aku menangis kat tmp duduk lrt tu.
Then jumpa kakak kat keta.. tru menangis and senyap ja all the way Federal hyway to home. Manage to tell my cousins along the way and my boss. I want to go back home. That all i could remember saying to him.
Kul10pm mlm tu kami kluar umh smp dlm kul12.Kakak pecut tak kira dlm 130 -140km/hr
so ada plak polis block and ask why .. so apa lagi muka sememeh ja 2-2org.. polis tu pun kesian tak bole nak kata apa..masa tu just about after tol ipoh
"adik nak pi mana mlm2 ni?"
me Huh?..blur(bole?)..kakak.. muka bersalah buka tingkap and 2-2 muka tengah sebek..
"nak balik kg..nenek meninggal"
"oo.. ye ke.. bawak elok2.. smp bwk tu baca alfatihah sedekah byk2"
me *fuh lega..dlm ati
then we continue our journey ..
smp ja kat umh tok.. which i always called umh chikTa umh tok,
lampu cerah ja terpasang..pintu memang terbuka luas..
aku memang dah tak pandang kiri kanan trus ja masuk, pi kat mayat tok terbaring kat atas katil.
mama sempat peluk kakak, and she cried at mama's lap..
me was still in shocked and sitting next to maktol's body and cry.
me ratu air mata, cucu kesayangan maktok.. i was there and staring at maktok.
Papa cried outside the house. I know he cant see this moment.
What else then just al-fatihah mengiringi maktok..
siapa pun tak sempat jumpa dia..
maktok pergi mmg dlm keadaan tenang dan sekejap sgt.
masa tu pakcik rodhi nak p beli nasik before he leave to pick up ifaf kat tuisyen and Najwan was home wastching tv. petang2 time 6.30 tu mmg her tv session la.
So pakcik rodhi cita yg dia lalu dpn blk tok, dia mmg dok tido cam biasa.
she was weak when the last time i when back to see her.. badan dia pun cam panas demam dedar ja..
then pakcik rodhi about to leave the house dia rasa tak sedap ati then pusing balik pi tgk tok. Dia tgk tok dh lain mcm ja.. then he quikly when to our house to inform papa, but then papa plak bru blk dr jumpa kawan dia, then trus pi umh tok, mama pun baru smp blk dr keja bila nampak papa jln nak pi umh tok, so every body was just about time to arive then trus pi tgk mak tok dah tak dak.
Papa kata, maktok pi dlm keadaan tenang and mcm dia tak mau bg kami tgk masa dia pi. So we wont be as sad. Muka dia tak dak pun kerut2. Aku doa sgt dia tenang dan aman.
Papa dh decide nak kebumi lepas zohor, kami bg mandi tu suma, masa last bg mandi tok tu aku sedey sgt. rasa rindu sgt kat dia. Tu la last
Syrn penah mimpi jumpa tok.. dia gtau aku.. yg maktok gtau kat dia yg soh gtau aku yg dia syg sgt kat aku.. huhuhu.. sedeynya.. aku tak penah mimpi jumpa tok.. tapi org len penah.
Masa last aku blk jumpa tok tu.. dia ada usap tgn aku.. aku ta pasan sgt.. sebb tak sangka kan? that would be the last. the way she look at me, stare really2 stare deep into my eyes.. mcm last ja .. ye la mcm aku kata td.. siapa sangka? aku pelik gak.. napa tok usap tgn aku camtu..aku ada gtau dia..kiss dia..hug dia.. aku gtau yg aku sayang sgt kat dia.. pastu aku kata nanti alyne blk lagi k? jumpa tok.. dia tanya bila?..huhuhu aku senyap.. keja susah nak dpt cuti.. so i wont know when ..all i could do is just smile..
huhuuhh.. tok... alyne rindu kat tok
ntah la.. kadang2 terigt balik byk sgt nak cerita.. masa dia sakit aku selalu hug dia b4 balik kl.. dia mesti stare mata aku, pastu penah sekali tu.. dia pegang pipi aku dia kata muka aku lebaq besaq pinggan..heheheh.. i can never forget that! tok..tok. you are just cute the way you are. very firm, strong lady. tak penah tunjuk kecik ati.. but i just know when you are.
i just mis my childhood sleeping in your lap, smells of your kain sarong really make me feel comfort and feels really close to you.
i just love you so much maktok. masa kecik2 kan.. aku tido bilik tak de kipas angin, tok kipas aku ari2 ngn paper lama. pastu bila berpeluh (aku kuat peluh time kecik2 dulu) mesti gatal belakang. tok nanti garu belakang aku.
maktok memang syg aku pd org len.. nampak sgt. but she will still keep a stern face and mention to ifaf and nurhan yg dia sayang suma cucu2 dia sama rata. I have tonnes of stiries about my maktok. I even wrote stories masa form 2, essay and get to read in front of the class. Heheheh bangga ooo.. she inspire me alot. i wrote it from my heart tak sangka plak cikgu tu suka. i did even think to write for homework.
Tok penah gak time akhir2 aku blk jumpa dia, dia dh tak larat ckp.. byk diam dah time tu, dia nangis time aku ckp nak blk, pastu aku hug dia then dia amik airmata dia then dia sapu kat tgn aku. i tot it was funny. Cam biasala aku tanya, awat tok? ..aku nak hg kenang kat aku. sokni aku tak dak hampa igt airmata aku..
masa tu terkunci mulut aku tak tau nak kata apa. Tok memang tau aku klo menangis mmg tak bole berenti, ratu air mata dia panggey. dia tau, aku mesti menangis klo aku teringat kat dia. Tak pa la, sabar and sedekah al-fatihah ja yg aku mampu skgni.
All i could think was, aku la yg paling cengeng dlm family. bila nangis ja.. nak ngadu apa2 aku mesti lari pi kat tok.. aku cita suma kat tok..sikit2 maktok. So sekarang ni aku dh tak tau nak cita ngn sapa. I dont have tok anymoe.I miss her dearly..
...maktok...
People come and people go and they will leave footprint in ourlife. But only those who are very closed to your heart will remain their footprints forever.
Dalam kenangan
17 June 2008 bersamaan 13 Jamadilakhir 1429
Allahyarhamah Hjh Fatimah Bt Ahmad
Al-Fatihah..
My day starts as usual. Tapi lately memang ari rasa berdebar2 ja..pastu mata plak selalu rasa kelip2 kat kelopak mata..kadang2 kanan, kadang sebelah kiri. Itula org kata nak menangis..
Dekat Kul 7 lebih ptg tu aku balik cam biasala..
abg chik nak blk sekali.. jln la sama2.. sib bek tak ujan.. jln dr office smp lrt.. org sesak..kena beratur tunggu, tapi tak lama 2nd train tu aku dpt masuk..
just about few second b4 pintu lrt tutup, my phone ring.
Papa! ala..time2 sesak camni aku payah nak angkat phone. Selalunya aku tak jawab, tapi aritu aku jawab jugak..hello?
aku dengaq sora syrn menangis dlm phone. aku rasa cam jantung aku benti time tu. Trus aku trigt kat tok. Ntah la.. lately mmg asyik trigt kat tok.. papa plak dok tanya bila nak balik. Nie lagi satu sebab wat aku tak sedap ati..
K/alyne..maktok..
huh?!.
*crying..sob..then she take a big gulp.. i can hear clearly she cry very bad
Maktok dh tak dak ...
masa tu.. org berhimpit dlm lrt tak tau la nak ckp...lembut lutut tuhan ja yg tau.. tapi aku tahan gak....i be strong.. keep telling to myself please dont fall org ramai sgt dlm lrt ni... just about smp station pasar seni.. ada org get down, abg chik manage to give someway and i get to seat. Dia soh aku calm down.. masa tu air mata berjuraian cam hujan, aku dah tak kira malu.Aku nangis ja dh tak peduli org pandang. Aku try call kakak, dia tak angkat. Batri phone dh tinggal 1 bar.. call byk kali dah kong dh phone lama aku mmg dah tunggu time ja. Tangan kaki aku dah tak rasa pijak bumi. My hand was shaking and susah nak tekan button hijau.Sib bek ada Abg chik tolong call kakak and when he manage to get the line.. all aku say, kak.. maktok.. then my eyes starts drolling again.. and she she response sama ja cam aku. When i say maktok dah tak dak.. she just shocked and keep quite. Aku ulang lagi sekali and starts crying and i can see ppl looking and staring.
So smp ja station Tmn Jaya, stop yg selalu kakak pick me up, aku turun c2, abg chik kata dia nak teman. I couldnt bother. Selangkah ja keluar dr lrt tu.. aku meraug sesungguh hati.. dr td tahan dlm lrt malu nak nangis. So out of train, so do my heart cry out loud. Memang ramai org kat situ, but all i could remember was, aku menangis kat tmp duduk lrt tu.
Then jumpa kakak kat keta.. tru menangis and senyap ja all the way Federal hyway to home. Manage to tell my cousins along the way and my boss. I want to go back home. That all i could remember saying to him.
Kul10pm mlm tu kami kluar umh smp dlm kul12.Kakak pecut tak kira dlm 130 -140km/hr
so ada plak polis block and ask why .. so apa lagi muka sememeh ja 2-2org.. polis tu pun kesian tak bole nak kata apa..masa tu just about after tol ipoh
"adik nak pi mana mlm2 ni?"
me Huh?..blur(bole?)..kakak.. muka bersalah buka tingkap and 2-2 muka tengah sebek..
"nak balik kg..nenek meninggal"
"oo.. ye ke.. bawak elok2.. smp bwk tu baca alfatihah sedekah byk2"
me *fuh lega..dlm ati
then we continue our journey ..
smp ja kat umh tok.. which i always called umh chikTa umh tok,
lampu cerah ja terpasang..pintu memang terbuka luas..
aku memang dah tak pandang kiri kanan trus ja masuk, pi kat mayat tok terbaring kat atas katil.
mama sempat peluk kakak, and she cried at mama's lap..
me was still in shocked and sitting next to maktol's body and cry.
me ratu air mata, cucu kesayangan maktok.. i was there and staring at maktok.
Papa cried outside the house. I know he cant see this moment.
What else then just al-fatihah mengiringi maktok..
siapa pun tak sempat jumpa dia..
maktok pergi mmg dlm keadaan tenang dan sekejap sgt.
masa tu pakcik rodhi nak p beli nasik before he leave to pick up ifaf kat tuisyen and Najwan was home wastching tv. petang2 time 6.30 tu mmg her tv session la.
So pakcik rodhi cita yg dia lalu dpn blk tok, dia mmg dok tido cam biasa.
she was weak when the last time i when back to see her.. badan dia pun cam panas demam dedar ja..
then pakcik rodhi about to leave the house dia rasa tak sedap ati then pusing balik pi tgk tok. Dia tgk tok dh lain mcm ja.. then he quikly when to our house to inform papa, but then papa plak bru blk dr jumpa kawan dia, then trus pi umh tok, mama pun baru smp blk dr keja bila nampak papa jln nak pi umh tok, so every body was just about time to arive then trus pi tgk mak tok dah tak dak.
Papa kata, maktok pi dlm keadaan tenang and mcm dia tak mau bg kami tgk masa dia pi. So we wont be as sad. Muka dia tak dak pun kerut2. Aku doa sgt dia tenang dan aman.
Papa dh decide nak kebumi lepas zohor, kami bg mandi tu suma, masa last bg mandi tok tu aku sedey sgt. rasa rindu sgt kat dia. Tu la last
Syrn penah mimpi jumpa tok.. dia gtau aku.. yg maktok gtau kat dia yg soh gtau aku yg dia syg sgt kat aku.. huhuhu.. sedeynya.. aku tak penah mimpi jumpa tok.. tapi org len penah.
Masa last aku blk jumpa tok tu.. dia ada usap tgn aku.. aku ta pasan sgt.. sebb tak sangka kan? that would be the last. the way she look at me, stare really2 stare deep into my eyes.. mcm last ja .. ye la mcm aku kata td.. siapa sangka? aku pelik gak.. napa tok usap tgn aku camtu..aku ada gtau dia..kiss dia..hug dia.. aku gtau yg aku sayang sgt kat dia.. pastu aku kata nanti alyne blk lagi k? jumpa tok.. dia tanya bila?..huhuhu aku senyap.. keja susah nak dpt cuti.. so i wont know when ..all i could do is just smile..
huhuuhh.. tok... alyne rindu kat tok
ntah la.. kadang2 terigt balik byk sgt nak cerita.. masa dia sakit aku selalu hug dia b4 balik kl.. dia mesti stare mata aku, pastu penah sekali tu.. dia pegang pipi aku dia kata muka aku lebaq besaq pinggan..heheheh.. i can never forget that! tok..tok. you are just cute the way you are. very firm, strong lady. tak penah tunjuk kecik ati.. but i just know when you are.
i just mis my childhood sleeping in your lap, smells of your kain sarong really make me feel comfort and feels really close to you.
i just love you so much maktok. masa kecik2 kan.. aku tido bilik tak de kipas angin, tok kipas aku ari2 ngn paper lama. pastu bila berpeluh (aku kuat peluh time kecik2 dulu) mesti gatal belakang. tok nanti garu belakang aku.
maktok memang syg aku pd org len.. nampak sgt. but she will still keep a stern face and mention to ifaf and nurhan yg dia sayang suma cucu2 dia sama rata. I have tonnes of stiries about my maktok. I even wrote stories masa form 2, essay and get to read in front of the class. Heheheh bangga ooo.. she inspire me alot. i wrote it from my heart tak sangka plak cikgu tu suka. i did even think to write for homework.
Tok penah gak time akhir2 aku blk jumpa dia, dia dh tak larat ckp.. byk diam dah time tu, dia nangis time aku ckp nak blk, pastu aku hug dia then dia amik airmata dia then dia sapu kat tgn aku. i tot it was funny. Cam biasala aku tanya, awat tok? ..aku nak hg kenang kat aku. sokni aku tak dak hampa igt airmata aku..
masa tu terkunci mulut aku tak tau nak kata apa. Tok memang tau aku klo menangis mmg tak bole berenti, ratu air mata dia panggey. dia tau, aku mesti menangis klo aku teringat kat dia. Tak pa la, sabar and sedekah al-fatihah ja yg aku mampu skgni.
All i could think was, aku la yg paling cengeng dlm family. bila nangis ja.. nak ngadu apa2 aku mesti lari pi kat tok.. aku cita suma kat tok..sikit2 maktok. So sekarang ni aku dh tak tau nak cita ngn sapa. I dont have tok anymoe.I miss her dearly..
...maktok...
People come and people go and they will leave footprint in ourlife. But only those who are very closed to your heart will remain their footprints forever.
Dalam kenangan
17 June 2008 bersamaan 13 Jamadilakhir 1429
Allahyarhamah Hjh Fatimah Bt Ahmad
Al-Fatihah..
Monday, November 10, 2008
Al-Fatihah
Me: oit.. td hang pi umh aunty ropani ka?
syrn: yup2
syrn: uhuhuh
syrn: sdey~
Me: huhuhu aku pun terkejut td papa sms
Me: kesian... kawan aku time kecik2...
syrn: dy mmg da nazak
syrn: tu la
syrn: masa nk balek tu
syrn: antie ropanio nangey pelok mama
syrn: kn mama slalu p tgk kn
syrn: dy kata
syrn: "hg jga la alyne elok2..anak aku Dia da amek balek..Dia bg pnjam smpai sni ja.."
syrn: sdey kot
Huhuh.. part of dialoge me & my sis td kat messenger..
My friend who is my classmate masa kecik2 dulu darjah 6, main sama2.. comot..bergaduh la.. those good old days tak mengenal erti kehidupan lagi.. tak penah dengki.. gaduh2 pastu kejap ja tak sampai 2 minit dah kawan balik..siapa sangka.. tuhan lebih menyayangi dia.
Dzul dah lama sakit canser ractum. My mom knows. Mama memang ada pi lawat dia masa sakit dok kat ward dulu. Mama & aunty Ropani sama2 keja kat GH Penang tu. Study pun sama kat Unisel, anak2 pun sama.
Dzul sebaya ngn aku, Nadia same age ngn syrn, even adik dia aizat sebaya ngn adeq. tolak yg last kecik sekali pompuan kot, aku tak igt diorg ni ada adik kami ada kakak.
Tadi petang lepas balik keja, turun kat lrt Bangsar, cam biasa abg dah tunggu. Then we go and eat dinner at close by mamak shop area taman desa ni. Masa tu dpt sms papa gtau yg Dzul dah meninggal dlm maghrib camtu. Tak sangka sgt. Last balik penang time cuti Deepavali aritu, masa nak anta aku gi stesen bas nak blk KL, papa ada cita yg Dzul nie dah teruk sgt dh, dia sakit canser. aku tanya.. huh?!lama dah ka?..papa kata.. lama dah...aku tak tau pun.. depa pun tau masa dah kronik.
Aku tak sangka plak Aunty Ropani nak ckp camtu kat mama.Huhuhuu.. emo plak. Yg paling tak tahan wat air mata aku tak benti menangis bila syrn gtau yg esok adik dia Aizat nak amik SPM.
Kesian adik2 dia byk sacrifice masa dia dlm chemo. Life seems so hard for his sister to persue her studies. Aizat plak, esok nak SPM.
Sometime i feel greatful bersyukur sgt2 dengan segala apa yg ALlah beri pada kita. Kejadian menimpa org lain bg aku tamparan yg kadang2 tu kita leka, lupa akan apa yg kita ada. Kita asyik mengomel, bersungut itu tak kena, ini tak kena.
Patutnya aku toleh kebelakang, dan lihat, sesungguhnya Allah tu Maha Adil.
Aku patut mensyukuri dengan apa yg ada bukannya merunggut apa yg tak ada.
syrn: yup2
syrn: uhuhuh
syrn: sdey~
Me: huhuhu aku pun terkejut td papa sms
Me: kesian... kawan aku time kecik2...
syrn: dy mmg da nazak
syrn: tu la
syrn: masa nk balek tu
syrn: antie ropanio nangey pelok mama
syrn: kn mama slalu p tgk kn
syrn: dy kata
syrn: "hg jga la alyne elok2..anak aku Dia da amek balek..Dia bg pnjam smpai sni ja.."
syrn: sdey kot
Huhuh.. part of dialoge me & my sis td kat messenger..
My friend who is my classmate masa kecik2 dulu darjah 6, main sama2.. comot..bergaduh la.. those good old days tak mengenal erti kehidupan lagi.. tak penah dengki.. gaduh2 pastu kejap ja tak sampai 2 minit dah kawan balik..siapa sangka.. tuhan lebih menyayangi dia.
Dzul dah lama sakit canser ractum. My mom knows. Mama memang ada pi lawat dia masa sakit dok kat ward dulu. Mama & aunty Ropani sama2 keja kat GH Penang tu. Study pun sama kat Unisel, anak2 pun sama.
Dzul sebaya ngn aku, Nadia same age ngn syrn, even adik dia aizat sebaya ngn adeq. tolak yg last kecik sekali pompuan kot, aku tak igt diorg ni ada adik kami ada kakak.
Tadi petang lepas balik keja, turun kat lrt Bangsar, cam biasa abg dah tunggu. Then we go and eat dinner at close by mamak shop area taman desa ni. Masa tu dpt sms papa gtau yg Dzul dah meninggal dlm maghrib camtu. Tak sangka sgt. Last balik penang time cuti Deepavali aritu, masa nak anta aku gi stesen bas nak blk KL, papa ada cita yg Dzul nie dah teruk sgt dh, dia sakit canser. aku tanya.. huh?!lama dah ka?..papa kata.. lama dah...aku tak tau pun.. depa pun tau masa dah kronik.
Aku tak sangka plak Aunty Ropani nak ckp camtu kat mama.Huhuhuu.. emo plak. Yg paling tak tahan wat air mata aku tak benti menangis bila syrn gtau yg esok adik dia Aizat nak amik SPM.
Kesian adik2 dia byk sacrifice masa dia dlm chemo. Life seems so hard for his sister to persue her studies. Aizat plak, esok nak SPM.
Sometime i feel greatful bersyukur sgt2 dengan segala apa yg ALlah beri pada kita. Kejadian menimpa org lain bg aku tamparan yg kadang2 tu kita leka, lupa akan apa yg kita ada. Kita asyik mengomel, bersungut itu tak kena, ini tak kena.
Patutnya aku toleh kebelakang, dan lihat, sesungguhnya Allah tu Maha Adil.
Aku patut mensyukuri dengan apa yg ada bukannya merunggut apa yg tak ada.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
This my house in SP. There you can see najwan playing under the hot sun! *sigh... tak dengar kata budak ni..lasak betul. Tak demam plak tu. Dahla tengah flu, main panas. Sepanjang masa asyik tanya bila nak pegi mandi kolam...heheh.. the day was bright hot and sunny, it was the right time to splash in the water. Unfortunately, my sis plak over consern takut hitam mandi tengah2 panas. So we wait and wait..about 5pm baru redup sikit* but still ..Najwan want it so bad and terpaksa la papa drop us there. And luckily tempat tu called "The Carnival" closed at 8pm. We still have 3hours.
Had so much fun, tapi too badlah takde org nak snappy snappy picture while swimming sebab 3of us nak berendam dlm air. The bags semua sumbat dlm loaker heheheh.. tak de nye nak tunggu shower, trus lari masuk air 3 - 3 org. Hehheheh...
*Nak pergi lagi sometime in future...
Life is like a roller coaster
It has been a while since last I drop my story. BUsy. Yeah.. over and over again..actually takde la busy sgt.. buat2 busy..hehehehehss... lately byk sgt politics here. Buat serabut kepala makcik je. Aku sakit hati.. tapi nak buat cemana. Tercepit kat tengah2. Org mia hal.. makcik tak mao masuk campur. Tapi itulah..org tak puaih hati ngn org lain, tak suka ngn kita and people being judgemental to others. Life is not fair. I truly believes in miracles. I trust God is fair. Only we never get what we ask for. Coz we always think that, what we ask for is the best for us. Actually when we didn't get what we ask for, God knows the best that it is not meant for us. Org yg tak cukup iman, masa-masa yg ceni la syaitan menghasut supaya org mengikut hasutan dia tuk join masuk ke neraka.
Sekarang ni time2 untuk bersabar. Aku doa evrything will be ok again. Back as usual. It will not be ok as what we want it to be, but at least better. Thats all. Life is like a roller coaster, sometimes we are on top,but sometimes we will be at the bottom. But theres always a rainbow shine after the rain.
Sabar la ek..
Sekarang ni time2 untuk bersabar. Aku doa evrything will be ok again. Back as usual. It will not be ok as what we want it to be, but at least better. Thats all. Life is like a roller coaster, sometimes we are on top,but sometimes we will be at the bottom. But theres always a rainbow shine after the rain.
Sabar la ek..
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
*Sigh.. Lamanya tak Update
Iz been very3 busy since my last article. Meeting almost everyday, then had to move to JayBee for meeting.
Meeting!Meeting!Meeting!
Ponin Makcik. Penat. Tak sempat nak plan for any holidays and at last I end up takde ticket nak balik from Penang to KL.
Just 2 days before CNY, I fly down to JayBee. Been 2 days werking and meeting there. Makcik sempat lagi snappy2 ehhehehe..
Then last minutes arrangement makcik trus fly JayBee to Penang for CNY holidaze. Pastu lupa plak pasal ticket nak balik KL. Pegi carik sume ticket dah sold out. hehehhe..padan muke, last2 terpaksa amik cuti Monday, ingatkan traffic getting better la on that day. But still, jem jugak beteen Jelapang - Ipoh. Keta bykkk. Memandangkan Sunday tu still tak balik KL, we all one family, have a trip to SP pegi tgk rumah. Najwan si kecik tu pun tag along. Sebab nak pegi mandi kolam katenyer. Heheh. Siyan kat dia, nak gi mandi kat botanical garden, tapi I said lets go to SP ada water theme park cam Bukit Merah tu but slightly smaller. Dia pun happily cakap nak ikut. So since Friday dia dah keep asking "Bila nak hari Ahad nih? Najwan nak pegi mandi." Hehehehe. Malam Saturday tu chik cakap dia dah siap letak baju, towel, bedak suma complete dalam beg sekolah. Chik cakap, dia dah ready dari semlm nak ikut K/lin.
Really enjoy my CNY holidaze. Dapat spend quality time with my family. *Happy.Happy..clap2..
Will attach the pixie later. Chiow. Busy nak sambung Keje!
Meeting!Meeting!Meeting!
Ponin Makcik. Penat. Tak sempat nak plan for any holidays and at last I end up takde ticket nak balik from Penang to KL.
Just 2 days before CNY, I fly down to JayBee. Been 2 days werking and meeting there. Makcik sempat lagi snappy2 ehhehehe..
Then last minutes arrangement makcik trus fly JayBee to Penang for CNY holidaze. Pastu lupa plak pasal ticket nak balik KL. Pegi carik sume ticket dah sold out. hehehhe..padan muke, last2 terpaksa amik cuti Monday, ingatkan traffic getting better la on that day. But still, jem jugak beteen Jelapang - Ipoh. Keta bykkk. Memandangkan Sunday tu still tak balik KL, we all one family, have a trip to SP pegi tgk rumah. Najwan si kecik tu pun tag along. Sebab nak pegi mandi kolam katenyer. Heheh. Siyan kat dia, nak gi mandi kat botanical garden, tapi I said lets go to SP ada water theme park cam Bukit Merah tu but slightly smaller. Dia pun happily cakap nak ikut. So since Friday dia dah keep asking "Bila nak hari Ahad nih? Najwan nak pegi mandi." Hehehehe. Malam Saturday tu chik cakap dia dah siap letak baju, towel, bedak suma complete dalam beg sekolah. Chik cakap, dia dah ready dari semlm nak ikut K/lin.
Really enjoy my CNY holidaze. Dapat spend quality time with my family. *Happy.Happy..clap2..
Will attach the pixie later. Chiow. Busy nak sambung Keje!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Too much water can make you blind
I was so happy to start my new day today. Makcik dah sambung belajar u ols. Hehhehe.. I've made up my mind. I need to have better qualification to step up further in my carreer wise. I've decided to persue courses which related to my work currently. Mebbe not much that I do know, but to have an opportunity to develop my skills and knowledge specificly into this "line" there's a lot to miss. I was so thrilled nak sambung belajar. Dah lama nak sambung, since abang dapat offer from UITM. Masa tu undecided nak sambung course apa. When I started my first job as QS makcik dah bole rasa it's so hard for me to be in engineering sector. Nak mintak keje punya la susah. Memang tough la, pegi site,kite sensorang je pompuan kat site, wear boots and what not, I admit memang tough. I dun really mind actually, cuma bila keje bidang construction ni yang paling tak tahan sekali, gaji masuk tak tentu. Itu baru contractor class C. Kadang ade project ader la, tapi bile maincon lambat buat payment gaji pun tertunggak. Penah makcik tak dapat gaji 2 bulan, pastu dapat half payment, pastu kejap dapat gaji, kejap idak berturut2 smp 6 bulan. Mana tahan babe! Nak makan hape? "Makan loti loorrr...." aiyoh!
Sudah lah perit nak kenang peristiwa masa keje kat site. Kawan ngn Bangla, mamat2 Indon nih biasa la.. apa yg makcik tak bole lupa, keje ngn selut, site office dok dlm container kecik je, bergegar kotak tu masa keje drilling bore pile. Hehehehe, makcik hitam *opppsss.. tanned tau masa tu! Tak kisah la. Keje bidang yang lasak ni kene la tough sikit. I've no regrets about my past. When I've decided to take this course, makcik berazam nak study hard! heheheheh.. hopefully bukan "hangat-hangat taik ayam.." Doa kan kite success ok?!!
Happy werkin~~!
* Bye-bye..I need to go buy pencil box..
Sudah lah perit nak kenang peristiwa masa keje kat site. Kawan ngn Bangla, mamat2 Indon nih biasa la.. apa yg makcik tak bole lupa, keje ngn selut, site office dok dlm container kecik je, bergegar kotak tu masa keje drilling bore pile. Hehehehe, makcik hitam *opppsss.. tanned tau masa tu! Tak kisah la. Keje bidang yang lasak ni kene la tough sikit. I've no regrets about my past. When I've decided to take this course, makcik berazam nak study hard! heheheheh.. hopefully bukan "hangat-hangat taik ayam.." Doa kan kite success ok?!!
Happy werkin~~!
* Bye-bye..I need to go buy pencil box..
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Meeting..
*sigh..
So much to do..
I dun think 24hrs a day is enough for me.
I only have 2 hands and there are alot.. i tell you damn lotsa work load ro do.
Attend meeting, arrangements for up & coming conference and..urrghh u dun wanna know bout my job.
Luckily tomorrows Friday. I'm almost there!!
Please God hear my prayers...I need weekend.
(aik bukan baru jer cuti New year kan?!!)
What to do.. I loves weekend..
Nak jugak!! Nak jugak!!
heheheh.. okies
* excuse me now, I want to go home and rest.. C u tomorrow
So much to do..
I dun think 24hrs a day is enough for me.
I only have 2 hands and there are alot.. i tell you damn lotsa work load ro do.
Attend meeting, arrangements for up & coming conference and..urrghh u dun wanna know bout my job.
Luckily tomorrows Friday. I'm almost there!!
Please God hear my prayers...I need weekend.
(aik bukan baru jer cuti New year kan?!!)
What to do.. I loves weekend..
Nak jugak!! Nak jugak!!
heheheh.. okies
* excuse me now, I want to go home and rest.. C u tomorrow
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